blog Zed. (in honor of steve irwin.)

well yesterday was a very strange day.
i woke up dead tired. but i had to go out to breakfast with steve mccoy.
so i literally got up when he got here. then we went over to coco's. i had toast.
so he was talking about his dad and how he was a drunk, and he would piss him the hell off and stuff. so we talked about that for a little while. and we talked about my dad for a little while. steve asked me questions that i couldn't answer for my life. so i wasnt sure what to say. we talked about some other stuff, and it made me fairly angry. he also said "ya know people aren't stupid, i know the hurtful things you've said about tawny" honestly, i don't really know what i've said about her that i haven't meant, well except in super private. and if i've meant hurtful things, then oh well.

but steve had a point. because of everything going on my relatioship with God is undeniably suffering. i feel like he's not even there... and it's so hard to trust what feels like nothing. maybe that's why i'm having trouble giving everything up to him. i need to pray. i need to... i dunno. build up a relationship with Him. could you pray for me in that.

so anyway after breakfast i got home and then went back out with my brother and dad, we were shopping for birthday presents for my mom. (my dad told her we were going to lunch, but he didnt tell us, so my mom kept asking how lunch was and i caught on and was like yeah... i only had fries.) so anyway. i got her that cat power CD. i think she'll like it. it was very weird to be shopping for my mom with my dad. it's werid to do anything with my dad, but he's willing to do counseling now. so that's a plus. i dunno if things could ever be the same again, but maybe that's for the better.

so yeah. then i got home. and lazed about and then my cousins came over and i was very tired so i took a nap, then i woke up at 8. then i felt sick. so yeah. and then i talked to heather for a while. that was nice. she had just broken into her appartment. phones are weird. i wish everyone i knew lived closer so that i could just walk over to them if i wanted to talk. that'd be soooo rad.

so then i went to sleep.
and that was my day.
if you want me to pray for you, drop me a line.
i could also use your prayer, if you wouldn't mind saying two quick little prayers for me...
1. for my relationship with God.
2. for my family.

thanks.
take care & God bless.

oh yeah... i'd like to be older like 2-5 years older. for two reasons. 1 then i would roughly match how old i feel in my head. and two, cause most the kids my age are lame, and a lot of the cooler cats are older.